blocks

man this totally sucks la i'm finally free from studying (temporarily) and i got nothing to do. should have gone trng.

stupid history today waste 3 hours of my life bloody hell last 30 mins i was staring out of the window looking at the central plaza which was so empty cos everyone else went off to play liao.

and maths GG very nice first time i complete e paper so calmly but then got this bloody prc ass teacher ask him for paper his face look as though he wanna die like that somemore speak in chinese u think everyone understand !

doubt

i was feeling so stressed up.
repulsiveness towards the past
doubting the future
and uncertain about the present.

thinking that time was running out.. panicking.

but then i know i gotta remain calm. i'm in a much better position than a month ago. can't let the nerves get to me. there's still time...

help

i think some of us today finally realised the magnitude of the task ahead of us. can't say i'm not fazed.. just(lol) have to work harder, but diarrhoea in the middle of training isn't helping much.

i don't want to be saying that i woke up too late..

figuratively, of course. i know i wake up late everyday.

in other news... my fav blogger is back! hahaha. looking forward to more interesting and provocative insights into her life.

boredd

just wasted another day.
curse u stupid rain! gave me such a shitty mood. but i guess i'm to blame.
the most productive thing i did today was learn 'hey there delilah'.
studies? haha!

after dinner my mom asked me to get some exercise. i almost died laughing.
but i did go run anyway, but run halfway, feel like shitting. otherwise would have been more fun! then at NIE see ppl playing football n basketball n tennis and wondered y i dun have this kinda 'somesport-kakis' thing. except maybe tennis.. but thats so rare. owell.

borring day.. let's hope tomorrow's better

my butt hurts!

so many things i thought of saying.. but i cant remember haha.
something to do with being happy. hmm.

think i've only felt this motivated once before, lets hope for a good ending this time too.

happyness

yess today i am happy because my timing improve by 1 second relative to boongan. given e unpredictable nature of water conditions i think its better to base my timings against a benchmark haha.

yup a athlete must be positive! even when u feel like shiit juss SMILEE. just like good feelings induce smiles so can a smile induce good feelings. very useful sometimes :)

ooh

haha somehow halfway thru e hols, i am starting to enjoy training abit more. whee! though still very tiring.. it has become more or less the highlight of my day. haha i sound so sad. but seriously, when i get home, either sleep, stone or mug. and thats not fun. im starting to enjoy the team more! hopefully i can maintain this attitude to the end. one more month!
i think my blocks really gg. i haven't paid any attention to it! not as much as i should anyway. ahh wondering if i should drop a sub. owell pay attention to that later. is there a later even? haha! my life is such a mess and i dont care. not now anyway. there's a nagging feeling in my head that i should be concerned.. but i'm too lazy. hee

not studying

ahh so hard to get started studying. tried to with sherman n daphne but just ended up making nice noise and acting retarded in front of a tv(sherman goes fishing in wii golf). my brain is just soo lethargic. just realised only 3 wks to blocks. i think i just woke up from some deep slumber or something. kept thinking it was so far away. guess i gotta pia. soon. haha procrastinating again.

wtf

lol today go down for aftn trng paddle abit then gotta come up alr.
why?
cos pub receive call that someone saw macritchie got crocodile.
like what the *&^%?! liddat anyone anyhow call and say got godzilla oso suspend water activities i think.
so now cannot paddle until they search and confirm no danger.
hais i think i next time wanna pon trng just call and say got rabid monkeys and stuff. totally wasted my afternoon man. and since we cant paddle joseph is preparing ghey land program for us (according to him we will want to die but not die)

so while we were all laughing there about the stupidity of it all then yanlong n yunle suddenly turn round cos they saw huge ripples in e water. and yanlong recalls that he recently saw a big dead fish with huge bite marks..

hmm