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2007-11-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

fucked up day thanks to me

2 more!

2007-11-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

i need coffee to stimulate my brain, so that i can understand how coffee stimulates my brain, thus allowing me to understand how coffee stimulates my brain, so that i can understand how coffee stimulates my brain, thus allo...

2007-11-16T17:48:00.001+08:00

what a bad day

A

2007-11-15T19:29:00.000+08:00

how to do a survey

after reading question, if initial reaction is

a) YES

proceed to do question.

if not, based on reaction, answer in the following maner:

HOH? -> A
cheebyewtf -> B
GG -> C
shitididthisbefore -> D

please forget your pencils!

again??

2007-11-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

GG
juss kena icebeam
brr..

sometimes i really just wanna scream it out
but deep down i know its the truth

oh god just make me perfect
why can't i be

gggp

2007-10-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

reading the gp bulletin makes me feel exceptionally inferior

2007-10-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

what the #$@%

why am i always in the wrong..
why do i keep screwing up
i'm not blaming anyone, just feeling pissed with myself.
i hate this #$@!-ing feeling.

1973

2007-10-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

tekong ah
time to shave lah
i'm so bald
shiny skin

tekong ah
wish i had known that
pte wong
is always wrong

they will call you up on a sunday night
time to pack your bag and lose all sight
of the world; "say goodbye DoTA"
and though time goes by
doesnt seem to be
we are always stuck
in base camp no. 3
grumbling, "damn fucking sian lah"

tekong ah
wish i could leave ya
so i could see clearly now
my mind has gone

tekong ah
i guess its hopeless
my memory plays our tune
life in hwachong

they will call you up every sunday night
time to pack your bag and lose all sight
of the world; "GO BACK THERE AGAIN?!"
and though time goes by
doesnt seem to be
we are always stuck
in base camp no. 3
grumbling, "i wanna play DoTA"

and though time goes by
we will always be
in a bunk with you
in base camp no. 3

feeling abit the sad leh haha

2007-10-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

sometimes living so near aint that great.

...
haha.

ok pls dun kill me !

I GRADUATED FROM JC TODAY
but tmr going back for lessons :)

the grad ceremony had some good parts. like 62's video. but the rest of it was ABSOLUTELY jus totally whatever lah.

after the ceremony..
cam whore like never before.

WHAT A HOT KIAT
everyone rushing to take pics with male supermodel kiat

den got island creamery w dubious alcoholic drink

and after that,
it's back to reality
oops there goes gravity
its back to the mugging 'gain yo
its so sad
but its fact
you better not lose the opportunity that you get

what am i saying

am i dreaming?

2007-10-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

pinch me!

food poisoning is no good.

who knew
that nasi lemak could be so bad. gonna avoid it for awhile.

hmm or maybe it was that korean thingy from one of the most unhealthy stalls ive ever seen.

even TWO BOTTLES of vitagen cant save me!!

AH#(*$*!@$*@(&%

sucks.
and i was even looking forward to going to school today.

no mood to do anything now.

random lyrics

2007-10-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

what i can do

making most of boundary, you
high, high high..

i'l stop the world and melt with you
won't do
dreaming better lives the kind we never have

by without me if you want
don't forget what you already know

ladeedee ah
beautiful in every single way

home
i stare into oblivion

i cant see so i drink until i see
give up on this

i got 2 dimes in a telephone
tonight
all right yeah

shelter
serenity

just might not fit the same
nothings worth losing
we're gonna be fine

and it will only get better
through the days and nights

oh my god
i cant believe i;ve never been this far away from home

here i belong
first time
feeling alive

i'm not here for your entertainment

listening to rap metal
like a bad movie
shoot me!

here we go again

and the purpose
god i hope im not stuck with this one

i'm so
bored

--

2007-10-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

my parents cant help but make me feel crummy bout everything. guess its for my own good though.

like asking me to stop following friends to overpriced places (bintan) and be more adventurous by going to islands like tioman/off sabah to go snorkelling n stuff, instead of some boring resort.

whatever.

-

2007-10-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK!

WHAT THE FUCK!

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK FUCK?!

feels good don't it

??!?@

2007-09-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

whats the point of saying cheer up when you know its so difficult to cheer up. same goes with dont emo and what shit. "dont do this" and "dont do that". "you should try this, go do that". who the hell do i think i am?!

cant i just shut up and lend an ear for once
and stop being so goddamned insensitive

BIATCH

2007-09-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

omigawd!
the things i say online are like, totally embarrassing?
i mean, i could really die from the shame, ya know?
you guys don't take me seriously okae? i really don't mean it ya know, i'm like, totally serious bout this 'cause it really matters to me.

anyway~

the flab four of us went to eat real yummy ice cream today. and insults of flabbiness were just flying all around like, whatever. so i just went to run. i know, its like so..totally not me yeah? but i just did it, ya know. and after that, my legs just felt wasted, man. and i was like all sticky and sweaty, ugh. gross.

but i felt real good, ya know. it really cleared up my mind a 'lil bit, yeah? maybe its cause there ain't enough blood going to my brain yeah, hawhaw. but, it's good, running, it be good.

???

2007-09-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

o i o e .
l n g p .
p e s p l
g r m o e
v o o s l
i e t b c

certain people should be allowed to stay at home during this post-prelim period in consideration of the immense time they spend on traveling (remember, 3 hours people), and the amount of resentment they generate. Poor, poor people, the lack of one miserable mark results in countless dollars spent on bus rides and 4.5hours of wasted time (of which, 3 hours are spent on traveling, remember?). to help alleviate their plight (3 hours is really long you know, 6 songs on a butterfly phone can only loop that many times), let me transfer my 1 mark to them, as it will serve to help save our souls as well. have i mentioned you can really study alot in 3 hours? you could even finish a maths paper.

IMFUCKINGUSELESS

2007-09-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

once again my incompetence rears its ugly head.

i want to forget
cant i forget
wheres the fucking reset button
or maybe i should just pull the damn plug

end of prelims

2007-09-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

what a way to end the prelims. although i can remember distinct times when i really was having fun, overall these 2 days have been bad, to put it simply. from my point of view at least. owell maybe i should stop being so idealistic. hmm.

but anyway.
many thanks to performers of today!
mrs ong.. for everything :)
zhikai for actually doing something, because i never really expected anything.
ding WHAT A SEXY DANCE sorry bout the fucked up pa i really should have confirmed everything about the setup
michelle has an imba voice!!
yenny for the extremely-last-minute vid, recording the whole thing and an attempt at qian li zhi wai
and last but not least, the band, for covering up all my screwups

thanks goes out to e spectators too for making an effort to come down to school so early

everyone did a great job today!!
thanks for helping turn such a random idea into reality

especially u

TSK

2007-09-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

ASSHOLE KEEP GOING TSK BESIDE ME.
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
SHUT THE FUCK UP.

:)

chem was alright. just that i forgot today was h3 instead of h2, so i wasted my whole weekend mugging stuff that wasn't required. oh well.
at least i'm sure it'll turn out ok. i mean, i only left a few blanks here, there and everywhere. not alot what. sure can one.
keeping the faith :)

mid prelims

2007-09-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

yayy 3 down 3 more to go!

i think i'm gonna die during A's.
its like 3 weeks?! now one week into prelims and i'm already losing steam.

chugchugchuggg...pouffs and grinds to a halt. ugh.

LIDDAT HOW CAN!?!?!?!
ohonohonoohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohonohono

prelims

2007-09-12T03:23:00.000+08:00

what da fuck man i cant sleep. and got maths later GG. probably means my physics revision is gonna get screwed too. woo hoo.

clam up

2007-09-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

shut up
no point saying anything
weirdo
wont happen
never will

ohnoggyo

2007-09-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

oh no whats happening to me.. prelims next week and i still cant get down to studying hard. prelims in 3 days! i should be going: omg omg mug mug mug!!

Green Day - Longview

Sit around and watch the tube,but nothing's on
Change the channels for an hour or two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I'm sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
And I'm fucking lazy

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going BLIND!!!
And I smell like shit

Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving
I sure as hell can't do it by myself
I'm feeling like a DOG IN HEAT
Barred indoors from the summer street
I locked the door to MY OWN CELL
And I lost the key

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going BLIND!!!
And I smell like shit

I GOT NO MOTIVATION
WHERE IS MY MOTIVATION
NO TIME FOR THE MOTIVATION
SMOKING MY INSPIRATION

2nd to 1st w/o middle

2007-09-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

rometimer sou'vs yoe gomethint snsidg ie oof, ynu aealld rany wt tcreao sm iut oout, led gt ift oouf yhesr. cut bgait, aou'rn yware ae oossiblf pamnine donsequenceg cs oroblemr phas tot yon'u deallt ranny wnswea ar. tno aed you'vt yotte gela tomeonl, someone slose cerhape, pus bon't dakt me iot taso, ey shao tnlt ohosy thae teallt rary (coe foor gntentiond, ios nossit) gilp wnol. knw ad so wuote qonge, soems, prits wryptie cessagec, mts. et tpeo ourselven os tho torle withoud weallt rayiny snything.. ahag wht tele hl am mlabberine bboug aant. makins mucg stupih seneralisationd. g's ihm tnle oeiry wnd oere! hawe.

acoco

2007-08-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

yess finally got my hands on a coco.
soothe me with lovely beachy musics~

woohoo prelims start tomorrow!

good luck everyone~

lets mug hard to enter ns early~

dun deserve h3

2007-08-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

ooh my chem is screwed. totally become noob le. GG
lets go learn cavatina instead

ned

2007-08-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

hahaha i am so childish~

its so laughable..

hee~

ggsumwhere

2007-08-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

everyone's moving on..

i hate to admit, but i've never liked change

today is saturday

2007-08-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

i am feeling quite abit sads/not really sad/happy/very sad/nostalsgic/relieved tnow that there are no more official classes. depends on my mood just choose one i guess. argh i'm not making sense again..

g t t .
l l o .
e i e u
f e n f

hais. i hate being blur. i wanna know everything! i dun care! RAWR

today sheep prac quite good.. had a good time, in general. still had those frustrating moments when everyone is banging out their own instruments and its totally chaotic.but anyway, nice to see what creative retarded stuff we can come up with. ok not really 'we' cause i'm not really counted..ahh fuck it whatever lah.

mm retarded stuff.. well. just makes me think of the class. one of the things i'll miss hmm.

after that studying in the frozen hell of libraryland. the cold numbs every part of your body till only your brain works and thats why its so conducive for studying. of course, some people start sleeping and snoring lol

ah my dad's such an asshole sometimes. then i just be an asshole back to him cos i'm his son (hoho) and everything gets worse.

another fuck day

2007-08-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

i wish i could cut off my emotions for these next few months and study hard for once.

fucked up day

2007-08-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

today is a really bad day.

this morning i looked at the sky and said 'fuck you' to the weather god. he's been a real faggot today and he should go home to the corner of the pathetic cloud he's on and reflect on what he's done.

and

Most useless CCA award has to go to the lion dance troupe. period. their random rhythm-less banging is headsplitting. you don't need to practise to do the stuff they do. and they probably only live for maf and cny.

fuck today.
what a cb day.

so many stupid little things inside me driving me crazy
fuck the lot of you go to hell.

kawk

2007-08-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

whee im bored too.

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:

You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.

At Your Lowest:

You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.

In Love:

You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.

How You're Attractive:

Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.

Your Eternal Question:

"What else do I need in my life?"

What's Your Power Color?

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.

You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.

Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.

People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

lol since when have i cared about anything

wonder if its what i want to be
rather than what i really am

beep

2007-08-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

so friggin tired. monday suckss. and so does tuesday. and thursday. bleh they all suck. and i'll probably be missing them next year.

mmm

2007-08-19T10:13:00.000+08:00

cant go to thailand sian. dunno why i suddenly thot of it. owell gotta study hard if not wont be looking forward to going anywhere.

feel like learning bass
if only i could kope one to play around with

gtg soon

2007-08-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

oo 100th post.. after what? 3 years? hahaha.

yesterday was like the last supper of 6g, at mrs ong's mama house.had lots of fun. kinda saddening too.. mrs ong gave out awards to us and we wrote mini testimonials for each other on a paper plate.. and we finally gave her the baby blue baby book. the sharing session, everything.. is really coming to an end.

anw on to the more retarded stuff of the night:

SASHA IS CHIO
chef waz going on a rampage to satisfy cheemo's gastronomical desires (more wings please zhikai).
co-chef weixiang loves his food extra rare.. or raw. cant tell
yihan going all red because of secretly consumed vodka. he turns the same shade of pink as class tee
desperation to play mahjong (traditional chinese game involving 4 people around a table with swimming motions -> according to junyu's mime) leads to sherman running over to the neighbour's house to borrow a set.
wii makes people go XUUWEII
wannabe paparazzi chasing wenxuan's gf.i think he got kinda pissed. but again who wouldn't
gaying on reclining sofas

probably a ton of other stuff but my mind is like a sieve.

after that chee stayed over at my house.. with surprising little incident, and woke up the next day exhausted.

band prac today was shitty. dingding came over after lunch with a orig copy of rayman lol damn funny game. he found it in a classroom even funnier. mugging was crap i cant concentrate.

mom is beginning to worry about me and so am I. no more dsa shit to cover my ass cant play already!

lazibum

2007-08-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

tmrs bbq! looking forward to it.

shades of p6 are reminiscent here.. overconfidence, slacking too much, addiction to the comp.. time to get off my lazy ass and work! but here i am blogging haha. i seem to have lost my stamina for mugging. ohno. don't think i can repeat the night to morning feat again.

gogogo!

zzz

CHEEBYEBLOG.BLOGSPOT.COM

2007-08-15T23:35:00.001+08:00

so many ppl know abt my blog

horrors!

#*$&*%&^#%(*#$@_!)#$*%^*&$_$)(*$#%

today saw yang explode 2 times. scary sia. i think mrs ong asking abit too much of him esp with a class like ours.

wanted to say quite a few things. but i forget. fack my memory sucks :)

3 day hol

2007-08-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

my brother is freaky.

nat day celebration was fun! took pic w mrs ong :)) ahh so happy. aft that watched crappy rush hour 3. then had jts at brewerkz! unfortunately i order crummy shepherd's pie instead of kingbar burger.. omg 500gm of beef between 2 buns.. its more like steak with bread lah. and i also fail in my quest to discover the allure of alcohol. just ended up bloated. hais.

nat day itself was omgwtfimba boringg. then my parents decide last min to stay at oriental hotel to watch fireworks. the hotel was right next to the floating platform so caught the fireworks up close! nice. then hotel room got mtv also..juss watch. ah my home tv is too deprived.

next morning ate bfast at Melt: The World Cafe. dammmm nice breakfast buffet. juss stuff myself.

just went to run at botanic gardens. wanted to try that after reading mich's blog haha. its so surreal at night. running round the lake is relaxing! except for the bloody construction going on at the mrt site. but without the lights from there, maybe the gardens would have looked creepy. owell. must do it again!

oh just took this again. gd way to waste time haha. results are abit different from what i got before i think.

me

2007-08-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

i have come to the conclusion that my character is rotten to the core. 4 years of character building in sji have gone to waste lol.

i'm so selfish i only think about myself. its amazing what goes through my mind sometimes. the self centred thoughts stun me whenever i reflect on them. i keep taking from the people around me, but never give back. with other people's issues, i'm lazy and usually don't give a shit. but when it comes to things that concern me, i put in extra effort n push people to do what i want too.

i'm so greedy i cling on to my money. i dont even break a sweat to earn it, but i'm so reluctant to part with it, even to help out a friend. my parents keep emphasizing generosity but unfortunately they've only gotten a monster of a miser in me. similarly i hoard whatever i have and am reluctant to share.

i'm hypocritical. what i say and what i do.. hais.

sometimes i get sad and pissed over really trivial things. pointless things. hundreds of millions of people are starving, under the threat of death everyday, in places so desolate where surviving is a miracle. while here i am in air-conditioned singapore, complaining about A levels, getting moody over 2 years wasted in ns. well those people have no education whatsoever, and being able live to my age is a plus, so why are you complaining when you actually have 2 years to waste? no one in this world owes me a living so i had better shut up and stop blaming other people for my "problems". because in the scope of things, these aren't problems at all.

i am envy, greed, sloth, gluttony, pride

i really really despise myself sometimes. i seriously have got to change if not i'll soon find my world crashing and i'll be all alone.

jamming

2007-08-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

band prac is fun! unfortunately it just ruins my mood for studying so there goes another saturday. so fast! hais. oh well. must perfect the hardrock funeral song!

ah feeling much more relieved now :)

openmydamnmouth

2007-08-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

tuesday went to donate blood but got rejected cos of low blood pressure. what the shit?! so i drink lotsa water (cos e doc said so) like three packets until i super bloated then come back measure again - blood pressure drop more! sians. so cant get hot pink bandage.

after teaching my bro chinese spelling for 3 hrs got damn bored so started taking random quizzes

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What's Your Inner Color?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping.

Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well.

You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to take over the whole bed.

You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

If you don't get enough sleep, you are: In a very bad mood

It's hard to sleep next to you because: You hog the covers.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

probably the truest test i have taken lol

Your Dosha is Vata

Creative and restless, you take in all of life's pleasures (maybe a little too much!).

You're quick witted and very talkative, but you also tend to have a spotty memory.

You tend to get very into ideas, people, and lifestyles... but only for a short time.

It's difficult to hold your attention, and you sometimes feel with what life has to offer.

With friends: You are very uncomfortable in new situations or with new people

In love: You fall in and out of love very easily

To achieve more balance: Live in a warm climate and spend some quiet time in nature

What's Your Dosha?

ants

2007-07-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

today i saw ants crawling over the yellow dustbin that stands by the bench next to mine. I wondered why they were so attracted to all that rubbish.. maybe it could be because they were so small they only saw like teeny bits of the rubbish and so they thought it was actually good stuff? then it hit me maybe we're just like those ants, desperately searching/chasing for this 'good stuff' (like maybe academics haha) but when when you look at the big picture it's actually a pile of rubbish..

guess what i'm trying to say is not to get too caught up over such things.. get so stressed and worried and depressed about it. when its really nothing. like a levels. hmm don't thing that qualifies as nothing though.. ok i dunno whether i'm making sense. having a troubled time now.. for no reason, really. cant stop hating myself.

laugh
smile
but ohsobleak eyes

the mood continues

2007-07-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

i admire people who stay true to themselves because i cant.
i'm so pissed being a hypocrite.

shit

2007-07-27T21:55:00.000+08:00

this is the worst week i've had, period.
as a fitting end, the screen of my hp has cracked too.

sigh

2007-07-25T19:55:00.000+08:00

I C D P
I S K U
Y F F E
M L E U

dt ihouldnt surt hut bt ioes

halfday

2007-07-23T21:36:00.000+08:00

hc doesnt give enough halfdays such that when one actually comes around people don't know what to do with the sudden freedom and most disappear back to their homes instantly (omg i've never gone home so early before) others (like me) linger around and attempt to mug while the rarity (blissfully denying the existence of prelims) do the right thing and go out and enjoy themselves..

stupid evil witch pissed me off, ruined my mood for the rest of the day. thanks i really didnt need your sarcastic order, bitch; now i have a reason to curse you in my sleep (and watch my karma enter negative territory). If its none of your business, please don't stick your crooked nose where its not wanted unless you want it further bent. rarr

...

2007-07-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

argh i feel so hopeless.
i thought after nats, i would be relieved of all tension, of all stresses (cept studying), no more emo periods. dont know what i was thinking cause that was really naive of me.

how come i worry so much
i couldnt sleep last night

and damnit why i cant i do anything about it

pissed. need to smack more pingpong balls

Desiderata

2007-07-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

INDULGE

2007-07-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

today discovered totally sinful comfort food in the form of deep fried mars bars with ice cream.

omg total sugar rush.

yes today my calorie intake is reaching the millions whee~

vodka, dfmbs, spicy chicken with cheese, icecream...
comps are over, let the gluttony begin!

dsasda

2007-07-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

watched harry potter just now, found it to be quite ok contrary to expectations, but some people may beg to differ.

then unexpectedly ran into clement on the bus home.. we've been kinda like looking at each other in that do-i-know-you-from-somewhere manner, but never talked. this time he sat next to me and we had a nice chat. apparently he was in 2I in ny so that explains it.

i feel weird shutting up the whole night then being able to talk freely with a near total stranger.

CANOEIST IS TEH SEKS

2007-07-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

haha i dunno who thought of this but it sounds pretty funny.

whew.
its over!
no more canoeing.
no more twist kick push
no more lock your arms, raise your elbow
no more shou tai gao, shou shen chu qu

haha sounds so weird.

no more getting burnt
no more red eyes cos of splashing water
no more abrasions and scars on my butt
no more drinking macritchie water
no more protein/magic milo/horsepower/horsoline/glucotine/gatorade
no more waking up at 6 to run
no more pullups at the pullup bar
no more team lunch at curry wok
no more waking up early on sat
no more waking up with my whole body aching

a big chunk of my life has just ended.
sigh

last night i couldnt slp not cos i was nervous but just thinking how on earth we were going to pull off such a major upset. but in the end we couldnt :(

at first, night before tues, i was so nervous. although only aiman was the real danger in my heat, i was still damn scared of some random guy frm random jc popping out and backstabbing me. but turned out my fears were unfounded, though i still got lup by him.

after that i was real calm, even though had boongan n teoguangyi in semis.. i was even trying to make myself abit more concerned before the race. got 3rd as expected, felt pretty gd knocking a nj guy out, but abit concerned when boon couldnt beat tgy. then we had our second loss of tim n malcolm.. quite unexpected. guess we should have played positioning cos justin was also in their semis. they were friggin upset bout it. and then there was the amazing comeback of damien which got the whole team damm high and our morale was out of this world.

finally today..
i could say we started pretty well. boon 2nd me 4th. i guess no one was giving me a chance cos they all acted as though i won or something. and that made me feel pretty gd haha. something about a gay end burst and shaun shouting 'that was a fucking good race!' but maybe he was referring to the 3 boats in front that were owning my ass. but i beat vasim! the guy who beat boon last yr! though admittedly he is much weaker now, but still

MASSIVE PERSONAL ACHIEVEMENT

haha ok i still abit high. according to chengyi, i am 3rd in order of happiness lol. behind ryan/nick and yanlong/marcus of course

i guess its all relative? i mean, in april at njcc i didnt even get pass the heats.
yaya i dsa supposed to do well.. what the shit. cmon man the top 3 - 2 nat team and one guy who repeatedly rejects nat team.

the rest of the day was a blur.. chengyi damn emokid cos he got third and thought he let the team down but i thought he was amazing especially since he lup BOK GUAN lol. and paul really down too.. crazy nick got his gold and so did yanlong n marcus.. really happy for them but in the end still wasnt enough and we finished 2nd overall. oh and bob got third! and imba gay scout yunle got 2nd though he oso damm pissed w himself.

after that, went back to mac to wait for boats to arrive.. for 3 FRIGGING HOURS. wtf. seriously fucking lorry drivers just lagging their asses to get OT pay faggots. so we stoning there.. play psp play pullup game.. the pullup corner became sort of emo corner - chengyi, yunle, niklas, chiajone... chiajone got really fired up started doing 15 matrix trng for nxt yr haha. wish them luck man its gonna get even tougher. haha then the craziness started we took out medicine ball and played touch rug which quickly degenerated into full contact rugby. then paul had to go rescue the ball cause it rolled into the reservoir hahah. chengyi, nik and shaun went crazy with a hammer and started uprooting stumps next to our shed and accidently decimated an ants nest. it was pitch black when the boats finally came, had to cancel our booking at hard rock cafe by then :( got damn high everytime a lorry came, everybody juss chiong.. matthew can run damn fast with a k1 it looks hilarious

aft tt go j8 eat ajisen. got veh veh full haha. and justin pia chili haha his whole face swollen lol. had a very good time.

six years..

ITS OVER
bittersweet

satire

2007-07-08T22:48:00.001+08:00

according to the logic of some people, i should be around the height of yao ming had i lived in the US of A.

last trng at mac

2007-07-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

today last trng at mac
tmr last trng forever.
time passes so damn fast. hope i've made good use of it.

hurhur

2007-07-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

hoho i just got a nikeplus thingy and went to run with it omg so cool la hahahah. when i got it i was so excited just went to run at 10pm and my mom and sis thot i was siao. the sensor was pretty ex but i dun mind its my money anyway. i think it really gives added incentive to run, something i'll need to stop me from getting imba fat after season. i'm drinking so much sweeet stuff now im gonna get diabetes soon.. gotta cut down!

got back maths and physics so far, really happy w my results, considering my effort in studying. in fact i feel abit guilty when e rest arent doin too well. and dammit stupid canoe guys say i get E for maths den cannot win, must get U.wtf. E is bad enough!

ahh didnt train today, feel really weird. like weak, flabby. but my body needs rest so forced myself to stay at home and play pokemon! ok im lying bout e 'forced' part. but seriously, pokemon is funnn...

tmr will be last training at macritchie?
....
i think i'm actually gonna miss the place

randomness

2007-07-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question. And there you have it...

01 How does the world see me? Take Me Out

02 Will I have a happy life? Try

03 What do my friends really think of me? Come Fly With Me

04 Do people secretly lust after me? Extraordinary

05 How can you be happy? Together

06 What should I do with my life? I Wish It Could Be Christmas Every Day

07 Why must life be so full of pain? 11:11 P.M.

08 Will I ever have children? Qian Nu You Huen (wtf?!)

09 Will I die happy? Catch My Disease

10 What is some good advice for me? Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

11 What is happiness? Shine We Are!

12 What's my favourite fetish? E-Pro

13 How will I be remembered? Way Back Into Love

14 What is your love life like? Armor For Sleep

15 What's your life motto? Stuck In A Moment

16 What do your parents think of you? Say Goodbye

17 What's your favourite hobby? Blue Moon

18 What does your best friend really think of you? Ban Shou Ren

19 What's the worst thing about you? There Is

20 Describe your mind. Selfish

21 How will you die? My Band

22 How does your crush feel about you? Breathe

23 What is your wedding going to be like? I'll Be Damned

24 What about your honeymoon? Self Reliance

25 Describe the last day of your life. Spice of Life

26 Why does life suck? So this is Christmas

27 Why does life rule? Numb

28 What will you be famous for? Bei Feng Chui Guo De Xia Tian

29 What's the craziest thing you'll ever do? Wonderful Christmas Time

30 Will you achieve your goals? Bigger Boys and Stolen Sweethearts

31 What will your future job be like? Happy Together

32 Your party life? Floorfiller

33 Overall, will you be happy? Bastard

34 Or will you just deal with it? The Legend

obviously i need to clean up my song library. Bei Feng Chui Guo De Xia Tian?! seriously wtf

blocks

2007-06-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

man this totally sucks la i'm finally free from studying (temporarily) and i got nothing to do. should have gone trng.

stupid history today waste 3 hours of my life bloody hell last 30 mins i was staring out of the window looking at the central plaza which was so empty cos everyone else went off to play liao.

and maths GG very nice first time i complete e paper so calmly but then got this bloody prc ass teacher ask him for paper his face look as though he wanna die like that somemore speak in chinese u think everyone understand !

doubt

2007-06-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

i was feeling so stressed up.
repulsiveness towards the past
doubting the future
and uncertain about the present.

thinking that time was running out.. panicking.

but then i know i gotta remain calm. i'm in a much better position than a month ago. can't let the nerves get to me. there's still time...

help

2007-06-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

i think some of us today finally realised the magnitude of the task ahead of us. can't say i'm not fazed.. just(lol) have to work harder, but diarrhoea in the middle of training isn't helping much.

i don't want to be saying that i woke up too late..

figuratively, of course. i know i wake up late everyday.

in other news... my fav blogger is back! hahaha. looking forward to more interesting and provocative insights into her life.

boredd

2007-06-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

just wasted another day.
curse u stupid rain! gave me such a shitty mood. but i guess i'm to blame.
the most productive thing i did today was learn 'hey there delilah'.
studies? haha!

after dinner my mom asked me to get some exercise. i almost died laughing.
but i did go run anyway, but run halfway, feel like shitting. otherwise would have been more fun! then at NIE see ppl playing football n basketball n tennis and wondered y i dun have this kinda 'somesport-kakis' thing. except maybe tennis.. but thats so rare. owell.

borring day.. let's hope tomorrow's better

my butt hurts!

2007-06-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

so many things i thought of saying.. but i cant remember haha.
something to do with being happy. hmm.

think i've only felt this motivated once before, lets hope for a good ending this time too.

happyness

2007-06-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

yess today i am happy because my timing improve by 1 second relative to boongan. given e unpredictable nature of water conditions i think its better to base my timings against a benchmark haha.

yup a athlete must be positive! even when u feel like shiit juss SMILEE. just like good feelings induce smiles so can a smile induce good feelings. very useful sometimes :)

ooh

2007-06-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

haha somehow halfway thru e hols, i am starting to enjoy training abit more. whee! though still very tiring.. it has become more or less the highlight of my day. haha i sound so sad. but seriously, when i get home, either sleep, stone or mug. and thats not fun. im starting to enjoy the team more! hopefully i can maintain this attitude to the end. one more month!
i think my blocks really gg. i haven't paid any attention to it! not as much as i should anyway. ahh wondering if i should drop a sub. owell pay attention to that later. is there a later even? haha! my life is such a mess and i dont care. not now anyway. there's a nagging feeling in my head that i should be concerned.. but i'm too lazy. hee

not studying

2007-06-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

ahh so hard to get started studying. tried to with sherman n daphne but just ended up making nice noise and acting retarded in front of a tv(sherman goes fishing in wii golf). my brain is just soo lethargic. just realised only 3 wks to blocks. i think i just woke up from some deep slumber or something. kept thinking it was so far away. guess i gotta pia. soon. haha procrastinating again.

wtf

2007-06-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

lol today go down for aftn trng paddle abit then gotta come up alr.
why?
cos pub receive call that someone saw macritchie got crocodile.
like what the *&^%?! liddat anyone anyhow call and say got godzilla oso suspend water activities i think.
so now cannot paddle until they search and confirm no danger.
hais i think i next time wanna pon trng just call and say got rabid monkeys and stuff. totally wasted my afternoon man. and since we cant paddle joseph is preparing ghey land program for us (according to him we will want to die but not die)

so while we were all laughing there about the stupidity of it all then yanlong n yunle suddenly turn round cos they saw huge ripples in e water. and yanlong recalls that he recently saw a big dead fish with huge bite marks..

hmm

SSS

2007-05-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

Sakae Sushi Sucks!

today's buffet experience is gonna put me off it for awhile.

ohmy..
oh! the agony...
oh! the suffering...

oh! the pain of my stomach and wallet...

never again
shall i be conned by that evil green frog!

asshole

2007-05-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

lol slept from 730 to 530. nice. another wasted day..

i'm such an asshole

dun help to clean up, leave people to bring e bikes back..
juss zhao.

not that i meant to do that.

i'm just another selfish asshole.

the beginning of hell

2007-05-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

..is nigh
today had core module on interview skills. pretty sian but i think i managed to pick up a few good pointers. was put tgt with 62 along w liwei, yang n yenny and other sat taking ppl... so meant that ewetos was there. pretty irritating especially since he seemed to like talking to me q abit.. had to fake alot of laughs. then saw liwei totally explode after gettin teased by one of her ex classmates. guess i will try to refrain from doing the same from now on haha.

after that trekked through hellish terrain to reach the oasis of island creamery. sweet respite from the heat awaited us in the form of a tub of verry the berry. while yen just chionged a mudpie on his own haha. had fun talking.

later met mark to buy pressie for mark (oo im seeing double here) heh walk until my legs damn tired. had "tea" at carl's jr with ken n shamir later. found out our 'generous' gift was going to be overshadowed by a psp from his gf. oops. Anyway it q stupid we were just there playing 1 psp and hp games. so pissed with our boredom that we went to play pool. my inner tyco-ness was in full flow today and managed to win 4/4 games heh.

just went out for supper with mark (again) yishu, darryl at serene. what they were doing there i dunno. i sat down with them for like 10 mins then all had to leave lol. still enjoyable though. had fun niaoing mark.

chalet tmr!

2007-05-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

sians today double loss.. netball and tennis.
sigh

thanks for giving me motivation to train :))

my tailbone has blisters ouch

wii

2007-05-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

been wanting to blog but havent found the time or privacy.

yesterday met up w mark n xf haha had some fun man. reminded me of sji - so much more carefree and enjoyable. heh then mark said:

train so hard for what? sacrifice for nothing one
seriously ah,dun mean to hurt u or anything, but like this u oso cant really win anything.

i also know that . heh. but got guilt mah. dsa still so lan. sure get zham one. but.. f*** canoeing. its just f***ing sian now. train train train. still see nothing happening. tmr best. cant watch netball/tennis cos must train. f*** la i wanna cheer for the school can. never watch netball before somemore. hais.

on a lighter note, we got a wii~!
oodles and doodles of fun~!
just what i need to distract me from studying from h3 lect test 2~!

bored

2007-05-17T21:20:00.000+08:00

i am so bored today i even started blogging again. many times before, i go online and read the blogs of the few friends i know and feel compelled to start blogging myself. but somehow i feel ashamed of doin so. even as i am typing this i am looking over my shoulder in case my pesky siblings come and go *gasp* *point* "you have a BLOG?!". i am still not comfortable with expressing myself.

have been sick for the past threedays, hopefully tomorrow i will be ok to go back to school. been so boredjust lying there feeling terrible, not just because of my body but because i'm missing out on the fun (yes school is fun, studying isnt) and not training (super guilty now). speaking of training.. constantly i think that what would my life be like without canoeing? without it of course i wouldnt be here in hc. i would be just another white blobby nerd.

hmm.

but in jc? i think my life would be much more carefree. more enjoyable? what has caused such a turnaround i wonder. i used to enjoy it and the company of teammates. now - nothing. i feel detatched from the team to a certain degree. why.. is it because i'm a slacker? because i miss trainings and miss hanging out with them? i don't think so. i don't slack that much. i think i just cant fit in with these people. sure i can bond with some of them, but i guess its kinda.. superficial? even last year, with the seniors..it was much better i feel. oh well. just about 70 day left. everyone's saying this : juss lub. since i have no choice guess i better do the best i can.

onto work. feeling busy these fewweeks (goddamn spacebar work!grr) but in actual fact not busy at all. just keep slacking. oftentimes i tell myself 'been working hard, its time to take a break' but in reality i haven't. argh its like, theres no time for you to take a break dammit get off your ass and work. pissed.

depressed

2007-03-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

never felt so suicidal before.
cant get over it.

high on infinity

2007-03-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

went to falloutboy concert!
with sis n cous so practically i was alone. what a loser. dunno why i didnt want to ask anyone along.. regret now. cant get high when im alone. my ears and feet hurt now. at first v sian waited like 30 mins for the openers. some local bands i think. got saw loser. mostly just noisy not very nice. could see that ppl werent interested in them. then aft they fin.. wait another 30 mins for falloutboy. damn sian sia. but once they come out.. whoo everybody go wild. got bunch of ex-sji ppl going crazy and like ppl were shunning them lol. some engmohs pretty irritating too. anw the band was really good. but aft awhile everything sounds abit muffled to me and my feet hurt from being stomped on ,then start getting sian. den hear those catchy songs get high again. feel the beat pulsing thru ur body lol. sweaty ppl just pushing here and there. the moshpit was crazy la got ppl shoving almost fighting. overall q fun i guess. dunno why i talk so singlish one. tired la my head hurts night.

(*£@!£

2007-02-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

ah sucks everything sucks
lagging behind in work and just totally sucking in canoe.
hais. wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf
my mind is shit totally no determination.
(*£@&*$&!!@F@!U@!*£*C!@*£K(!@£!@
go die go die go die go die go die go die

(@#*&(@

2007-02-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

ARGH stupid golden haired overzealous cleaner woman. how can she clear my tray before i'm done when i'm off buying drinks and my tray is surrounded by 9 other muscular intimidating guys? HOW CAN SHE?! now my bloody irritating retainers are gone! Those f***ing stupid things that cost me a f***ing hell lot of money! WHAT THE SHIT?! RAWWRAGHGHHGHG!!

ok whew just wanted to get that out of my system. today cny celebration was q sian.. came at 830 only to realise everyone was wearing homeclothes. so zhao back home and come back to get scammed by j1s and councillors selling their disgustingly overpriced wares. went back sji met the usual gang. mark flirting with ms lee who had the unfortunate chance of meeting us at the bus stop thus forcing her to miss 2 buses. then watched the protege. really really creepy show. i think it will totally put anyone off drugs for life. after that.. the INCIDENT as described above happened. hais. sucks man.

going to msia tmr.. still havent packed lol.
malaysia boleh!

dad bday..

2007-02-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

.. is actually tomorrow. but we celebrated it today anyway.
super busy day today. wheew. woke up at 8 for church, then rushed off to see dan in the hospital. poor dude got his left eye smushed by a softball. hope he recovers soon. then went to toapayoh to study before going to geylang to try out this seafood place that kf seetoh brought anthony bourdain to. freaking ex but also freaking good. im stuffed haha. was just reading up on the clipper race. i wanna take part! but dont noe bout ns... might interfere with my plans. and there's also the slightly HUGE issue of cost. just stick to playing tennis for the moment haha. i have got my hands on mika's grace kelly!

tennis

2007-02-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

hahaha woke up at 6 to play tennis against the wall in the dark!

in the aft played tennis with paul!

dont feel like doin work le. ran out of steam after 6 weeks lol.

just play tennis!

...

2007-02-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

time is so short
time cannot be bought
dont waste it

this year will fly by
end with a sigh (of relief/happiness/regret?)
make it slow down, make it stop
i'll do anything to live it again

take control of your life
fear - thief of success you must stop
look up at the sky and breathe
see the limitless you can achieve

ultra ed. 1

2007-01-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

sent my phone in for repair today. all those stupid niggling imperfections bugging the hell out of me. so now i've got a camera-less phone whose puny lcd screen flickers whenever its pathetic ram is threatened by me opening a file. but at least i can type my sms with satisfaction haha. i wonder why no one makes black n white camera-less phones now.. with the level of technology it should be a piece of cake. they can focus on design and making it cheap. imagine the samsung ultra edition 1.0 - the worlds slimmest phone at 1.0 mm thick with zero features but at least it does the basics right. and never breaks down.

so much work to do...
wish i could go driving
wish i could play tennis

peachy

2007-01-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

i just ate an american white peach.

yummmm

sugar rush just makes you so happy even with h3 chem staring in your face.

argh

2007-01-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

whoo
deep breath.

ahh.. stupid @*&# school.
nice.

this week has been crazy.. and it'll continue to get crazier. dont think i can cope much longer. cant quit now though.
i wanna complain about h3. i shouldnt have appealed ever. stupid lecture no link to stupid tutorial. and the teacher wont give answers. im not that smart!

hais..

should go play volleyballsquash more and just zham all the stress out

school

2007-01-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

argh schools started. sucks man. first day on wed last week we had a physics test greetin us. good thing i sat next to gr haha. got a ton of hol hmwk piled up which is really stressin me out. hais. as a result ive been late 3 times already. and its only the 5th day of school. lol. keep it up man. ct is already having to talk to me. tmr im late and its hellooo cs!

speaking of ct... got a bunch of new teachers. some are good some bad. yup. mostly good..
saw our junior class yest. not too pleased with them assigning 6g as map.. but hopefully we'll have some good times. not.

go chiong maths le

day 1

2007-01-02T01:06:00.000+08:00

tokyo!
it's midnight now.
while waiting for my bath to cool, shall write some shit.
arrived at 7 japan time, waited ages to get thru immigration. finally thru after an hour to find my sis' luggage missing. nice. thankfully efficient dudes retrieved it from the idiot who mistook it for his.
then, spent around 2 hours riding trains to get to our hotel. number of subway lines is absolutely mind-boggling.
after a nap went to take a walk around ginza. giant flagship stores everywhere. but we didnt really shop, just walked outside.. so i resorted to people watching. alot of office workers here not many youths. most of them are really well dressed.
went to eat japanese food after looking round the side streets. really cool place with nice atmosphere. abit to nice for ian tho haha. he dozed off after compalining about the soothing traditional music in the background.
after dinner was 5.30 and dark. it's winter now. have i said its cold?
retreated to hotel where i fell aslp watching tv. not much to watch really. just a bunch of variety shows and maybe some subtitle-less anime. boo.
oh! their toilets are the best. they warm your ass! wash your butt! tickles tho. amazing

2007

2007-01-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

2006 left and 2007 arrived without any incident at all. been one of my most boring new year celebrations. even managed to miss the fireworks. later went to yi-en's hse to watch borat which was totally disgusting haha. school's starting. hais.

bleah

2006-12-31T02:03:00.000+08:00

getting my ass whooped in training. damn i suck.
aft training went seoul garden to eat. i finally learnt how to make a good scrambled egg. i think i'll avoid this place for awhile though. super ex and i dont really like to work for my food esp aft trng.

not doin work again. hais. how how how how
where is my motivation
i've lost all motivation
got to find my motivation

back from travellin

2006-12-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

just got back from kl yesterday. talk about a tiring trip man, we went shopping EVERY SINGLE DAY. my legs were dying. i dont regret going but it could have been alot more fun if it me n bob werent the only guys.

got conned into going to macritchie for training when there actually wasnt. hais. owell good chance to condition myself before i go back to trng and die.

singapore is so crowded. the weather sucks. i wanna go japan again.

(@#*(%

2006-12-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck

FUCK

JUST FUCK IT

2006-12-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

today was. argh i dunno how to say. felt very depressed and extremely happy at times.
see it was like this

play tennis - whee
told off by parents - boo
go to suntec alone - boo
meet gr n yien on e way - whee
continue e rest of e way alone - boo
collect pay! - whee
calculate wrong so go all e way back up again - boo
collect increased pay! - whee
come home alone - boo
fix bloody printer - boo
go for guitar - whee
%$#@ing printer still wont work - boo
prisonbreak - whee
sleep - whee
trng - BOO

sick

2006-11-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

it sucks being sick. especially during the holidays. i was practically glued to my bed for 24 hours.

1 whole day!

and my mouth tastes funny. even chocolate cant save me.

at least im getting better now. head's still woozy and stomach's still queasy. BUT. im getting better.

semiexclasschalet

2006-11-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

hoo just came back from aloha loyang.. had a sort of 6f class chalet there courtesy of liying's family. they're damn nice lah :) 'sort of' cause only 7 people went and only 5 stayed over. owell still had fun tho. like being owned in 3on3 bball in e middle of the night when you cant even see the ball; cycling till ur butt hurts; playing in a playground full of kids half your age and being raped by a certain seven year old. hahaha had lots of fun.

1 more week to JAPAN!
i cant wait

casual labour

2006-11-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

tired.
just finished the first ever paid day of work of my life. turned out much better than i expected to say the least. somehow these words arent reflecting the state of joy i am in now.
14 hours
$77
adidas bag and tee (did i mention free?)
crazyfun people!

doesnt get much better than this i should think.

2006-11-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

im such a freaking coward

c r a o s y i a n l o e

2006-11-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

heh on my way home today i actually felt compelled to blog.
my heads hurting now. think its cause of listening to loud noise (ie guirong) for an extended length of time hahah.
watched casino royale! quite funny haha. especially the balls-whacking bit. nice way to piss off your torturer. but the ending was.. hmm. not very satisfactory? or maybe its just me.
oh had first piano lesson today too. hmm may turn out to be more enjoyable than i thought. think the teacher was a bit surprised at having such an old noob. ah im feeling old...
got training again tomorrow. hais. not looking forward to it as usual. hate having to sleep early to wake up early.
So far this holiday has been pretty fun overall. been doing much more than just goofing off at home. hopefully it turns out more productive and satisfying than previous holidays.

revival

2006-11-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

cool havent blogged in a year.
so much has happened since then. was reading this yesterday. so interesting to see how much i've changed. and this is about that. to remind me of this time next time. hopefully i can be a more active blogger heh.
dad got an imac few days ago. its so cool. especially the keyboard hahah. so nice to press. whee. getting high typing crap.
hmm hmm what should i say
training these few days was crap. just totally exhausted after each one leaving me unable to do anything productive for the rest of the day. today seemed slack.. but i still feel whacked.
heh been wondering why im still in canoeing for awhile. getting doubts about staying in it. i'm weak, can't run fast and paddle like a snail. i seriously have lost all form of interest in it. only the pride of being a DSA student keeping me going at times. hais. i'm so undisciplined and lacking in will power. urgh gettin negative here.
okay should stop it.
just watched an episode of kogepan. its hilarious. though he's in such a sad sad situation thru no fault of his own.. i think if i were him i'd commit bread suicide long ago rather than spend my days moping and getting drunk on milk. in a way, a lesson for life?

anticip

2005-05-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

for some odd reason, i was looking foward to this day, though nothing really interesting happened.

firstly, all the chinese teachers came and told us the grim but extremely 'duh' fact that we all did very badly for our chinese midyear paper. This despite the fact that our 'O' levels are only weeks away and they refuse to return us our papers. I think they are afraid that we will be demoralised by our lack of competence, but by leaving us in the lurch i feel much worse than if i knew where i went wrong.

secondly, i had my first guitar lesson today. my teacher is called tikum. or hikam. i couldn't hear him or remember now. anyway, it was kind of awkward, trying to hide my joy and looking at him with a straight face. can't wait for the next lesson. i sound like a giant n00b but i don't care; the guitar is so fun.

so that sums up my day. lame but, yeah, well, its my life.

my birthday was yesterday

2005-05-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

So why am i telling you today? Because i was busy studying for my mid year exams. Serious.

connect four

2005-04-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

lost my specs today capsizing in the k4 mens under 19 semis. sucks man, i cant read words on the com screen without leaning foward. the deterioration of my eyesight is scary. i used to think i could see pretty well without my glasses but obviously i was wrong. i find it very irritating to be unable to see everything outside the reach of my arms clearly. i think i should start doing yan bao jian chao again everyday so i can at least preserve this level of myopia.

har har

2005-04-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

today is april fool's day.
wasnt that funny really.
nope, everyone was too darn passive.

wednesday

2005-03-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

i think my school is slowly undergoing a change in its policies. rules are being relaxed and we can now do what was previously impossible. for example, it has been 3 weeks since mr tan told me to cut my hair but no one has questioned my ever extending fringe.

i should attend those student leader meetings and lobby for greater freedom.

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

i was bored.

sdba

2005-03-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

yay i won a gold for the 1000m k2 race .. all thanks to ying chuan no doubt. surprisingly i also managed to get third with shaun, so pretty successful outing for me this time. sadly we didnt win the overall title, but i dont think many of us were affected that much. after this we will be moving to macritchie for training, and im looking forward to that. but before anything happens, ive got a ton of hol homework that needs to be done and im feeling sleepy...

tuesday

2005-03-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

surprisingly i woke up at 9 today, considering that i slept at 2 am i think thats quite an accomplishment for me. Especially since it is the holidays and there is no real need to wake up quite so early. Then i went to toa payoh to meet up with my group to do the english project in the afternoon. Took some pictures of the fabric of the nation and then went over to delvin's house to finish up. Didnt really finish anything as we ended up playing table tennis and editing pictures of half naked teachers. After that i bought some bread from bread talk and ate it on the way home on service bus number 157.
Still feeling hungry i proceeded to gobble up my dinner then plonked myself down in front of the computer. Spent large amounts of time trying to beat a guy at online pool and then played a few rounds of hearts. Deciding that i was completely useless at pool after losing to my sister i finally brought myself to update my blog. Having nothing great to reflect about or anything interesting to recount i decided to provide a simple boring log of what i did over the course of the day, while leaving out potentially embarrassing bits. reaching the end of the post i remember something that i have tucked away behind in my mind.

this sunday is the sdba invitational finals and i am taking part in two races on that day. somehow i have always disliked competitions especially the tension before the race begins. but after the race begins my mind becomes focused and i just concentrate on doing my best. the hard bit is to suppress my nervousness before that makes me feel so bad inside. how do you change such a natural reaction when even if you know its going to be all right your body justs feels that way?

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