ants

today i saw ants crawling over the yellow dustbin that stands by the bench next to mine. I wondered why they were so attracted to all that rubbish.. maybe it could be because they were so small they only saw like teeny bits of the rubbish and so they thought it was actually good stuff? then it hit me maybe we're just like those ants, desperately searching/chasing for this 'good stuff' (like maybe academics haha) but when when you look at the big picture it's actually a pile of rubbish..

guess what i'm trying to say is not to get too caught up over such things.. get so stressed and worried and depressed about it. when its really nothing. like a levels. hmm don't thing that qualifies as nothing though.. ok i dunno whether i'm making sense. having a troubled time now.. for no reason, really. cant stop hating myself.

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