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everytime im alone with nothing to do i begin to think of all the stuff ive done that day and sometimes i will remember something that i did which did not seem so bad but now is very embarassing to me and i wonder why i feel so bad and sometimes i remember an incident when i think that i went out of control and i wonder how my friends can stand me because i certainly cant and all these funny thoughts enter my head with embarassing moments from long ago making their appearance and i feel so bad that i dont want to do anything but cover my head with a pillow and pray that my mind will just shut up and go to sleep.