me
i have come to the conclusion that my character is rotten to the core. 4 years of character building in sji have gone to waste lol.
i'm so selfish i only think about myself. its amazing what goes through my mind sometimes. the self centred thoughts stun me whenever i reflect on them. i keep taking from the people around me, but never give back. with other people's issues, i'm lazy and usually don't give a shit. but when it comes to things that concern me, i put in extra effort n push people to do what i want too.
i'm so greedy i cling on to my money. i dont even break a sweat to earn it, but i'm so reluctant to part with it, even to help out a friend. my parents keep emphasizing generosity but unfortunately they've only gotten a monster of a miser in me. similarly i hoard whatever i have and am reluctant to share.
i'm hypocritical. what i say and what i do.. hais.
sometimes i get sad and pissed over really trivial things. pointless things. hundreds of millions of people are starving, under the threat of death everyday, in places so desolate where surviving is a miracle. while here i am in air-conditioned singapore, complaining about A levels, getting moody over 2 years wasted in ns. well those people have no education whatsoever, and being able live to my age is a plus, so why are you complaining when you actually have 2 years to waste? no one in this world owes me a living so i had better shut up and stop blaming other people for my "problems". because in the scope of things, these aren't problems at all.
i am envy, greed, sloth, gluttony, pride
i really really despise myself sometimes. i seriously have got to change if not i'll soon find my world crashing and i'll be all alone.
i'm so selfish i only think about myself. its amazing what goes through my mind sometimes. the self centred thoughts stun me whenever i reflect on them. i keep taking from the people around me, but never give back. with other people's issues, i'm lazy and usually don't give a shit. but when it comes to things that concern me, i put in extra effort n push people to do what i want too.
i'm so greedy i cling on to my money. i dont even break a sweat to earn it, but i'm so reluctant to part with it, even to help out a friend. my parents keep emphasizing generosity but unfortunately they've only gotten a monster of a miser in me. similarly i hoard whatever i have and am reluctant to share.
i'm hypocritical. what i say and what i do.. hais.
sometimes i get sad and pissed over really trivial things. pointless things. hundreds of millions of people are starving, under the threat of death everyday, in places so desolate where surviving is a miracle. while here i am in air-conditioned singapore, complaining about A levels, getting moody over 2 years wasted in ns. well those people have no education whatsoever, and being able live to my age is a plus, so why are you complaining when you actually have 2 years to waste? no one in this world owes me a living so i had better shut up and stop blaming other people for my "problems". because in the scope of things, these aren't problems at all.
i am envy, greed, sloth, gluttony, pride
i really really despise myself sometimes. i seriously have got to change if not i'll soon find my world crashing and i'll be all alone.
kris - 11:57 pm
1 Comments:
Don't be so harsh. Everyone has a dark side. Its only normal. You just need to know when to use which side. Its not hypocritical to do that or have alternative thoughts or to suspect others. Once again its only normal. And chris you might think you are a bad person cuz of these thoughts, trust me you are not. Cuz im worst. Hahaha especially with my upbringing and everything. Nevertheless... money is also something i lust after considering my current life. Haha... so its OK to love money. Even if its obsessive. Oh and hypocrisy is a little devil within each and everyone. Its a self-defense mechanism that works when we feel threatened.
Haha nvm lar. Enough philoing. Jiayou and props to hypocrisy.
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